God wants me to write. He tells me to write, but I never know what to write, so I write whatever comes to mind. Most times I’m afraid of writing the wrong thing, and I’m never sure if anyone will be interested in what I write, so I don’t share it; BUT God wants me to write. He puts all these amazing things on my heart and most times they just stay there; words unsaid, locked away in my heart and my head. But that’s not what God wants; He wants me to write. I get so caught up sometimes in wondering if anyone will actually be interested in reading my writings, that I haven’t been obedient to His word. But I know that it doesn’t matter what anyone else thinks, or likes, or agrees with, as long as I’m doing what my Father has instructed me to do. Even if my writing doesn’t reach millions, as long as it touches one person, I’ve done something right.

God blessed each of us with unique gifts, talents, and skills, and He wants us to share them with the world; that’s why He gifted them to us. What good is it for me to be blessed by the Lord with such gifts, skills, and talents, and keep them to myself. Just as the Lord gave me this ability, He can surely take it away. I always tell God that I want to live a life of righteousness, that brings Him honor, glory, and praise, but how can I do that living quietly. How can I do that without sharing His goodness. How can I do that when He puts something on my heart to do, but I let the world dictate when and how I do it.

I am NOT perfect, and I don’t claim to be, in fact if you know me, you know that I will quickly admit that in fact, I am the opposite. I am an imperfect being just trying to live a life that makes my Father proud. I know though that it is through my imperfections and weaknesses that God’s strength is made perfect, so I thank God often for not expecting perfection from me. If perfection was a requirement for God’s love, grace, or mercy, I would never be able to attain it; I’d never be qualified. I’m so thankful that the blessings that God gives can’t be earned. Isn’t it ironic how God takes the most imperfect people and use them for His good. That’s because God isn’t looking for perfection, He’s looking for obedience. So stop waiting to be perfect, to be obedient; I am guilty of this. If we don’t answer to our calling, it takes nothing for God to find someone else that will. It’s because He doesn’t need us, however we DO need Him. 

So remember, we will never be good enough, kind enough, faithful enough or gracious enough, nor will we give enough, do enough or say enough to earn salvation; let’s just be grateful that salvation is free. Thank God for the free gift of salvation! I’m so thankful that He’s so forgiving and merciful, and that even when we’ve been disobedient He allows us the opportunity to do better. I literally write (journal) daily, yet I keep it to myself. So I’ll continue to write for You Father. I don’t know what I’ll write; but I will write, and I’ll share this gift/skill/talent with the world. Please continue to let the Holy Spirit lead me, and use me as a vessel of Your love and blessings, and as a steward of Your word; on earth as it is in heaven. 

Your Peculiar Child